God's Plan

Today was the day I was supposed to be writing to you from Panajachel, Guatemala, telling you of the beauty there and my amazing experiences thus far. But I'm not. Instead, I'm sitting on my couch of my living room, still in Iowa. Sometimes it is difficult to understand God's plan in it all.

After two weeks of packing and preparing to leave, while fighting health issues and a sickness, I was sure I'd be going to Guatemala on October 4. I had my plane ticket, my language school bill paid, and I was totally in control. However, on Friday, God reminded me that my control is simply an illusion. I had a second doctor's visit, and was told to hold off on international travel, especially to a place like Guatemala where there is a poor medical system.

I was called by God to go to Guatemala. His plan for my life was finally coming together. Then this happened. I was finally about to do something big, go out on my own, and it all came crashing down, just days before I was supposed to leave. Disappointed and angry, I just wanted to shut down. I did not want to talk to anyone, and I'll be honest, I definitely did not want to talk with God.

However, God somehow got through to me. He reminded me of something that I needed to be taught. This is not about me. This is not about Guatemala. This is not about my health or my happiness. This is about Him. Our lives are not meant to be self-glorifying, but instead God-glorifying. I could never go to Guatemala on my own. Doing this is so far out of my comfort zone. God calls us out of comfort zones and into His great plan.

I knew God was going to teach me through this experience of going to Guatemala. However, I sure did not realize how much He was going to teach me before I even arrived. At this point, I have no clue how soon I will be going to Guatemala. I will only know a few days in advance. No, this was certainly not my plan, but fortunately, I have an amazing God who has an even better plan. I may not always know why, but I am going to trust Him. He is faithful through it all. He's a big God with big plans, and I cannot wait to see what those plans may be.